Monday, March 4, 2013


     I have put on my best 'being patient and brave' face for the past month.  I was even downright optimistic for a while.  The shedding continued, but then something crazy happened-while my hair was on a "break" from the steroids I made another hair appointment with a new stylist, who also happens to be my cousin who owns her own Salon.   I explained to her my situation (so she is now the 3rd person who knows) and explained to her that my dermatologist encouraged I continued to have my hair colored as a way to make me feel good about myself still.  For the first time in my life I hated having my hair done because I was fearful the entire time.  Even though Cousin K knew of the situation I wasn't sure if she had informed the others working in the salon and what their reaction would be at the girl with the shedding head of hair.  However, I left feeling good about myself and for a week my shedding stopped completely-I even forgot about it.  I thought, 'this is what I've been waiting for...this is why I had to be patient'.  But with the restart of the steroids, after 2 days, the shed continued.  Not only did the shed continue, but this round of treatments my scalp begun to shed as well.  I was picking off pieces of dead scalp!!  I had a little dandruffish issue after my first round of steroids and, after talking to the doctor, was told to ask my stylist, Cousin K, for some anti-dandruff shampoo that wouldn't strip my haircolor.  I was using the shampoo, but my hair and scalp were not cooperating!  At this point, 11 days into my second round of steroid treatment, I stopped the treatment (without consulting the doctor since I'm a little angry with her at the recent turn of events).  I expected the hair to stop falling, like last time, but this time around has been nothing but DRAMA!  My floors, my hairbrushes, the shower floor, the hair on my clothes- I'm having a very low moment.  The miracle cream that was going to save my hair seems to be drying it out and killing it more-or maybe that's my imagination?  I'm not even sure anymore.  I know for a fact that the hair is still falling and I know for a fact that new hair growth is not in the cards with this steroid stuff.  
Miracle Cream that isn't so miraculous

This is just a few days after cleaning out my brush- I didn't even know I had this much hair on my head
And the dreaded floor I'm forced to look at after each hair drying session.   The dermatologist told me NEVER to look at the floor after drying my hair but how can I avoid this disaster surrounding my feet?

I still try to believe that someday I will be able to face this without fear or tears, but this month has been a downer and I'm trying to embrace the fact that any beauty I possessed has slipped away, to the bathroom floor, with my hair.  

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